OM Ireland, thanks a million. |
It’s hard to believe that it’s all over
There’s still a part of me that thinks
That in a few days
I’ll be taking a plane back to Ireland
And continue life there
But the longer I stay here
The more it's slowly sinking in
That I’m not going back
At least for a while
The time has come and gone
A year that involved so much
Planning and waiting
Emails and embassy visits
Visa issues and placement changes
Thinking back to when I thought I would be in Austria
“God, I’ll walk through this door until you close it”
Then a week before I was supposed to go
He closed that door
A dream crushed
Facing confusion
Grief
Uncertainty
Time was running out
Needing to remember that my life is not my own
All the while
He had a different door
For a place that never crossed my mind
Ireland
And here we are
8 months later
And how it's gripped my heart
Last Sunday at church. |
Looking back it's crazy to see how God provided and worked
In a place I had no idea what to expect
Learning things like how office life is still essential for ministry
At first having a hard time wrapping my mind around the fact
That my main role would be the administrative assistant in OM Ireland’s office
That normally wouldn’t be a job that I would sign up for
But seeing as that’s the position they needed filled
I tried filling in that role the best I could
Aware that I would need a lot of help and a lot of grace
In doing something I wasn’t strong in or passionate about
It sounds lame but I struggled
Sitting at a desk all day
Answering emails, transferring calls
Paying motor taxes, scheduling devotions
Getting wrapped up into the office routine
Feeling discouraged because of not
Being out there where the people are
But as time went on and my perspective grew
I began to see how all this is necessary
In order for the ministry to keep going
The fine details if overlooked
Can cause issues that will hinder
Instead of helping people thrive
A stretch in abilities
A change in perspective
A call to be faithful
Even in the little things
It’s all for Him anyway
A favorite view from my desk at the office. |
But also realizing that no matter what job we have
The call is still there to make disciples
Convicted that even if my ministry for this internship is to do office work,
I still need to be intentional about
Being in the community and building relationships
Can be harder than it sounds
But as the year went on
I was amazed and humbled at how
There were so many times
So many days
When I didn’t know what would happen
But the challenge was there to just show up and be available
Praying that God would provide opportunities
To meet and talk with people
Most of the time when we went to
Ballaghaderreen to visit refugees
We had no clue who we’d meet or
What would happen
But God always provided people
Always
It was so crazy
In this Syrian world in the middle of Ireland
Seeing relationships strengthen and conversations deepen
Conversations about life
Leading to conversations about the Gospel
Leaving the hotel in awe
Of how only God could have orchestrated that time
After dinner with some of the Syrian guys |
I wish I could put into words all that happened
but even in just 8 months
I think life has changed
I never would have thought I'd end up there
but God has a much bigger picture in mind
"You can make plans but God directs your steps"
Needing to trust with open hands
Persevere in the midst of fear
God does provide
And God is faithful
One thing I still can't get over is meeting the Irish woman
Who also lost her dad
The journey it's been with her
The spiritual battle it's been with her
But in this
Seeing how
God uses your story
There were times when I was struggling this year
With the loss of my own dad
Questioning the pain
Then I'd get a phone call from her and she'd say,
"I know I can talk to you because you understand."
Wow
Seeing God use this loss for His glory
Across the world
It doesn't minimize the pain
But it somehow gives a purpose to the pain
It's hard for me to understand
But it brings me to tears
Because it's literally and personally
Watching God make beauty from ashes
I'm thankful I was able to meet her with before I left
And praise God, she's willing to get connected with other Christians in Dublin
But please keep praying for her
One last thing before I sign off
But this picture above
Is one that I hope to never forget
Before I left for this internship
And was in the middle of all the chaos
Of not knowing where I'd end up or what I'd do
A verse kept popping up
Time after time
In the bitterness of all the changes,
I wanted to believe what the verse promised
But I had a hard time letting it sink in
Dramatic as it sounds
But when I flew across the ocean
Into what I only knew as the unknown
I walked into my room for the first time
And there hanging on the wall all by itself
Was a cross with that same verse on it:
"The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me,
Your steadfast love, O LORD, endures forever.
Do not forsake the work of your hands."
Psalm 138:8
My heart sunk to my gut
I still don't know why plans happened they way they did
But I don't need to know
What I do need to know
Is that God is good
And I belong to Him
It's about Him
Always has been
Always will be
In the next few weeks
I'll be heading back to British Columbia
For my last year at Columbia Bible College
The adventure continues as
I'll be a Resident Leader
For group of college ladies in my dorm
If you could be praying
For the wisdom and grace to lead in a Christ-like way
And the love and strength to build relationships and community
As well as for the transition back to life in this part of the world
That would be amazing
I can't thank you enough for journeying along with me in this
All a part of something bigger
But from the bottom to my heart
All a part of something bigger
But from the bottom to my heart
Thank you
May we keep trusting in Him
Until next time,
Ell ♡
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Impact Ireland - short-term outreach with so much enthusiasm. |
The hotel in Ballaghaderreen where the refugees live as they wait for housing. |
Syrian coffee. Probably the strongest cups of coffee I've ever had. But I'd take it any day. |
Last time with the whole gang. |
Haima lived in the hotel for about 1.5 years. But she finally got a place and it was so cool being able to visit her in her new home. |
Being responsible for the post was always a party. Thanks for all always asking me about my day, Mike the postman. |
Colm helping out with worship with his Irish bodhrán. |
Stopped in Washington & British Columbia on the way home |
So incredibly thankful I was able to be in BC for Bek's wedding. Love you! |
Also so thankful for his family. First met them Ireland but they are originally from the same city where I go to school in Canada. Crazy how small this world is. |
And now back home in Green Bay. |
I've had plans / shattered and broken / things I have hoped in / fall through my hands /
You have plans / to redeem and restore me / You're behind and before me / oh, help me believe
God, You don't need me / but somehow You want me / oh, how You love me /
Somehow that frees me / to take my hands off of my life / and the way it should go
...To open my hands up / and give You control
Tenth Avenue North - "Control"